Gaze into my Heart.

2009-12-03T11:00:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, im starting to use onsugar more often. do link th other site too. I'm not gonna close down this blog. just too many memories. :)

2009-11-30T20:43:00.000-08:00

I know that song makes you think of him.
And it tears me to know that you still might go back again.
Please hear me calling you.
I want you to know that its true,
I can't live without you.

So take my hand, may i have this last dance.
Cuz its raining outside and we don't live forever,
So take my hand.

Give me your heart girl i will keep it safe and sound.
I promise i will never let it hit the ground.
I'll keep it all patched up so you will finally see.
That me and you girl we were always meant to be.

So take my hand, may i have this last dance.
Cuz its raining outside and we don't live forever,
So take my hand.

And I know it may be hard to get through,
but baby go where you heart tells you to.
And now there's only one thing left to say,
Is that you truly make my day.
So give yourself a smile,
for doing what you've done.
I know he tore your heart into pieces.
but girl i;ll fix it up if you want.

So take my hand, may i have this last dance.
Cuz its raining outside and we don't live forever,
So take my hand.

2009-11-30T12:19:00.001-08:00

Nov28th. A Day i'll never forget. Ever again. :(

2009-11-25T09:17:00.000-08:00

cause at th end of th day, i still wasn't able to answer this question. and i'll never answer it. because, we're not meant to be. :)

From this day forth, i'll let go all hopes and dreams of you. I'm gonna live life, my way. -SYN's Way.

2009-11-25T08:57:00.000-08:00

awesumz nails ! :)

2009-11-25T08:49:00.000-08:00

i wont say i like you anymore, even if i do, i wont say it out loud. Because, i believe, it's better for us to be what we are now.

2009-11-24T22:36:00.000-08:00

When i see your smile, tears run down my face.

I'm afraid, really afraid. Of speaking my heart. What if things go wrong, and it's hard to even be friends ever again.

usemeasyouwill,pullmystringsjustforathrill. andiknowi'llbeokay,thoughmyskiesareturninggrey.

2009-11-24T10:02:00.001-08:00

I’m horny, like extremely ridiculously horny

Written by Sarcastic Sage on November 24, 2009 — Comments (2)

I’m horny, like extremely ridiculously horny. I haven’t had any in weeks. I really try to be faithful to my boyfriend but he’s never available when I need him. Lately I’ve been tempted to pick up someone random, but I don’t wanna ruin our relationship. I really love him, but my toys aren’t cutting it anymore. What should I do? ~ desperately seeking orgasm

Desperately seeking orgasm,

I think the problem is with the toys you are using or at least the way you are using them. You are not supposed to try and cut yourself with the toys. Don’t use any objects with sharp edges. The cutting has probably led to the nerves in your genitals to be damaged. So it’s not going to make a difference whether it’s your boyfriend or someone random.

You need to go see a doctor so he can patch you up and restore feeling to your toy-ravaged fun parts.

(Y)

2009-11-24T05:02:00.000-08:00

Th dog food delivery guy is a fucking dog i swear. I think he fucking ate finish th dog food and have to go back and get more. From fucking 4-6 drag til 9pm and say need 30mins more? Fucking piece of shit waste my day. _l_

yes i'm pissed.

2009-11-23T14:31:00.001-08:00

My boyfriend broke up with his ex-fiance in December

Written by Sarcastic Sage on November 23, 2009 — Comments (20)

My boyfriend broke up with his ex-fiance in December and he still talks to her and they hang out every so often. I’ve asked him if he would get back together with her and he says no, but I worry about it because they still talk and hang out. He texts her to hang out and he says “i know what your answer is going to be” (meaning she won’t). Even though he told me that he was the one that broke it off? How do I ask him about it without making him feel like i think he’s not over his ex. and how can you really tell if a guy is truly over his ex, especially if they had been engaged? –Sara

Sara,

You must be the World’s most understanding girlfriend. Here is how you can find out if he is over her or not. Suggest a threesome and see what he says. If he wants to do it, then it’s time for you to pack your bags. And if he doesn’t want to do it, then you still need to pack your bags because he is gay.

So basically just pack your bags.

HAHAHA.

2009-11-23T09:43:00.000-08:00

FYI, i was so fuckng bored, i made two new blogs ! Just incase you guys didn't know.

http://blackveiledbrides.onsugar.com
http://blackveiledbrides.tumblr.com

Cheerios !

Edit:

♥ Rara &B says:
*i dont want. ):
*i want speciallll.
*x:
*e-ngwah.tumblr.
♥FHM}Gaze - SynysterG. & Z.Vengeance, Sickest Solos ! \m/ says:
*WTF
♥ Rara &B says:
*PWN.

Pwned.

2009-11-22T06:46:00.000-08:00

Hi peoplez. I'm awake. I realised i slept alot. God. Worst part was th puking. I distinctly remember th hot spicy taste of sambal. -__- Alright ! Awesome parties. 20th was Lionel & Kevin's be-earlieth party. * if there's such a word. HAHA * Happy birthday guys ! Th party was awesumz, drinking games, double dares, booze, jokes, smoking. Th food wasn't that bad either! Awesumz music too \m/ Met loads of new friends too ! :D next.. 21st ! Pzz's party ! Okay , th earlier plan was epic phail. Damnit. I really hate people changing plans or play stunts on me . :( supposed to go suntec to catch a movie before th actually party, but people said they dont wanna go, so it's like 3 people left? I asked Pzz and Kl for a change of plans, so in th end, KL went to suntec still to get popcorn, while pzz met me at Khatib to get our vodka. \m/ It was boring shitz man, while waiting for EVERYONE to come to my place, i took out my old PS1 * HAHAHA * and we played MEGAMAN x4 \m/ !!!!!! Omg that game pwns. Next pair to come was Pork and Zuki, then at around 12 Mr BooBooBoo! and my dearest daughter Regina came. And then th real party got started. Hahaha. For th first time, drink, drank, and fucking got drunk. As many of you know, i ended up sleeping in th fucking bathroom while puking . LOLOL. Ohwell. Awesome parties guys ! Hoping for more to come ;) CHEERS !

& once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIONEL THIO AND PHAN ZHENG ZHI !

sotellme,isitwrongtosayilikeyou?

2009-11-22T00:58:00.000-08:00

Hi ! I fucking fell asleep in my bathroom while puking yesterday. AWESUMZ !

2009-11-21T02:52:00.003-08:00

I spent a dollar on a lighter that has like flashing lights. Fucking cool. -being sarcastic- .

2009-11-19T01:55:00.000-08:00

see that sexy lil thang ? IT'S MINE BITCH ! Gonna collect it tomorrow. HOHOHOHO. SEXY LAH!

2009-11-17T11:52:00.001-08:00

I NEED TO DRINK BEFORE I GO CLUBBING. THAT'S TH ONLY WAY I KNOW TO GET HIGH. HAHA.

2009-11-17T04:06:00.001-08:00

Really lazy to do my pics properly. BOOMZ ! It's Zirca ! ♥ Met up w heart and headed to Nuer's work place. Waited for her to get changed and off we were to do our hair ! Hell , if my hair was straight i'd really look like Sixx. Damn ! D: Did our hair, timing was a lil off schedule. x_x Reached there on time still , :D Met up w Billy and Auditioners ! Waited for a lil more people and off we were ~ *skips th queueing part * Went into Zirca, talked a lil, was wondering what to do w Red. Since he got bounced out :\ Talked a lil, then went back in to dance. Hoho, first time i kinda danced. I promise you guys next time i'll really dance ok ! D: Saw a lil conflicts here and there, busted my leg while walking out of th dance floor ): i really loved th atmosphere when they were playing you belong with me and it's my life ! omg sexy. It's like during Slipknot's concert. AWESUMZ ! Hah, shan't elaborate much about th happenings. :3 After clubbing, went to eat at mac. Fooled around quite alot. x_x We diff ways after that. :) Chatted a lil w Eric while walking to th Mrt. Haha. Reached home and dropped dead on my lovely bed ♥

2009-11-17T04:03:00.000-08:00

2009-11-17T02:45:00.001-08:00

Wide awake, my mistake, so predictable
You were fake, I was great, nothing personal
I'm walking, who's laughing now?
(Who's laughing, who's laughing now?)

I'm wasted, wasting time
You talk for hours but you're wasting lines
A pretty face but the chase ain't worth the prize

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two
I'm gonna break your little heart in two

A party queen, cause a scene, so ridiculous
Little dress, maybe less, so conspicuous
You're falling, who's crashing now?
(Who's crashing, who's crashing now?)

I'm wasted, wasting time
I'm moving on but you're left behind
A pretty face but the chase ain't worth the prize

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do

I'm gonna break your little heart
Show you to the door
Sew yourself shut and now you're begging for more
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two

Don't be so sentimental, no
This is love is accidental, so
Give it up, this was never meant to be
More than a memory for you

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
(When I break your little heart in two)

I'm gonna break your little heart
Show you to the door
Sew yourself shut, now you're begging for more
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two

2009-11-15T00:49:00.000-08:00

Hi. Currently Kl & Pzz are at my place. Baaaaaah ! We're so bored ! I'll update this later. Afew things have happened in a day itself. Saddening yeah. :\

Edit:
Okay, i'm home. Hi ! Supposed to cut my hair, but yeah. Change of plans. Going Zirca tomorrow ! Hope i actually do dance this time. x.x And enjoy myself. :3 So it's like, Sat Kl, pork, zuki, pzz tonned at my place. For once in a long time i felt SEH. Fucking marlboro. Enjoyed myself though :) i guess that's th point. Other than trying to get drunk too. Ugh! Half bottle downed quite quickly. :( gotta get more. D: Woke up at around 1+ or later. Dont really remember. Went out, sis asked if we wanna kup for pizza, so yeah. FOUR PIZZAS ! ♥ Hohoho. Fucking full man. Still got 1 unagi and ramen. :D fooood ! Left home at around 7+ or so, cause Pzz was rushing home. Walked around admiralty w KL nuer, debating if we should cut hair and how we should cut them x.x Discussed about what to wear w Joresar on th phone, lmao. I gotta train up man, i think i'll look better in my v necks if i actually have a bigger chest D: Went back to th salon to realise that there's a fucking long queue, so i sent KL to woodlands Inter and went home. That's all for now! Oh, STEAMBOAT W TH CLIQUE'S TH SEX MAN ! ♥ You guys!

Things changed, idk what i did, and idk what's your reason for changing. I dont know if things would change back to like what it was back then. If it does, forget it . I'm sick of having friends that come and go. There's loads of things i wanna tell you, but i cant. Cause, if i do, things wont be th same. And it seems, it wont be th same alr. Well, for me to know, for you to find out. If, you ever do.

2009-11-13T06:57:00.000-08:00

KAWAII NEHHHHHHZXC !

2009-11-11T13:13:00.001-08:00

And you said it would be funny
To keep me hanging in suspense,
Then I'd run over to your house
And I'd scale the chain link fence
That, borders your back yard
And that I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I love you
As you fall out of your clothes

And we'd lay there in the darkness
Like the dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies
And we knew what time we had
Could be counted on our finger tips
That almost made you cry
You let me hold you tightly
As we said all our goodbyes

May I say I loved you more?
May I say I loved you more?

And it must have been an hour
That I clutched you in my arms
And I must have said the the right things
Because you instantly felt warm
And you heard my heart stop beating
And you wanted not to cry
As your sympathetic whispers
They told a tale of bad goodbyes

And you swore you say me laughing
And I swore I saw you smile
And this time we spent together
Has got to last us quite awhile
As I take this piece of you with me
I'll carry it to my grave
Knowing that for someone
You're an angel sent to save

May I say I loved you more?
May I say I loved you more?
(Keep breathing my angel,
If you go down I go down with you
Keep breathing, just keep breathing)

Lets drink to the memories that we shared
Down one to all the hopes and cares
Here's to for being unaware, that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory

Lets drink to the memories that we shared
(Before too long you'll be a memory)
Down one to all the hopes and cares
(Because before too long you'll be a memory)
Here's to for being unaware
(I said before too long you'll be a memory)
That you're gone
I said before too long you'll be a memory

2009-11-11T11:41:00.000-08:00

In everything i do, i make th wrong choices . i keep wanting something i can never have. Sometimes , its safer to just be friends, then taking th next step. What if, something goes wrong, and there goes your friendship? Ugh. Being single for so long sucks. :( Thanks heart for today ! Appreciate it loads. I decided to go out lesser nowadays. I really am spending too much. I've no pics, imma upload some after i cut my hair. Yes, i'm cutting my hair.]

Edit:
Oh right, one more thing. If you're being my friend only to contact me when you NEED something or WANT something from me, fuck off. I dont need you . And you dont deserve th honorable position called my FRIEND. Thank you for your co-operation. :)

2009-11-10T12:06:00.001-08:00

YOU ARE FAILZ.

sorry im too bored. :\ idk what to post .

2009-11-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

Sex. I want makeup and manicure . HAHAHA

2009-11-02T08:41:00.001-08:00

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, it's ok, it's ok-a-e-a-e-ayyy.

and Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my-ay-ay, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay, woah stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

At th end of th day, it all came down to this. Thanks for th five lovely months, even though we have never met, its truly an honour to call you mine. Thanks for th love. I'll always be there, like a guardian angel. ♥

2009-11-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

alrighty, i haven't blogged for awhile. and honestly idk what to blog about either. okay so i've been to sentosa twice in two weeks. i finally got an even tan . hoho :D and my butt and thighs will ache. fucking hell. shouldn't run so much . damn ~

2009-10-26T10:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, we all wish we could go back to our childhood. Just living life as it is, playing all day, Watching cartoons, without a care in th world. But eventually, everyone has to growup and face th challenges life throws at us. I regret not spending much time w my family. I miss my mom, my dad, my FAMILY.

2009-10-25T01:57:00.001-07:00

2009-10-24T11:44:00.000-07:00

Hi, i've got 50+ pics. lazy upload naoz. Wait for updates !

2009-10-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

cool pic aye ? Hahaha ! I realised i can multitask. I can clean my nose while playing audition !

2009-10-19T20:31:00.001-07:00

Okay, so i haven't been blogging for awhile . Blah . Worked for th first time in my life . HAHAHA . Fucking tiring shit . I swear. Its kinda fucked up too. Mee siam finished alr still need stand there and pose. Fuck you ! _l_ :( Oh well, enjoyable experience i guess. Haha. Bought my pink and white v neck. FINALLY! And i wanna get a blue polka dot polo T_T haven't uploaded a pic for awhile . Meh .

2009-10-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Sorry i'm gay now. HAHAHA !

2009-10-15T22:29:00.001-07:00

Fucking hate it when people tell me this line - "You dont understand/You will never understand/You're too young to understand."

2009-10-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

ONIZUKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !

2009-10-09T10:05:00.000-07:00

It's been 1 whole month. From 090909 to 091009. It's been a lonely, cold, sad road. But i'm still surviving. I miss you loads, im sure you know. Thanks for th msn conversation , i really miss your voice. Your voice, shall forever be th soundtrack of my summer. ♥

2009-10-08T08:51:00.001-07:00

Hi, Welcome to FHM. I'm FHM.Gaze, and your host for today !

Sorry im damn bored.

2009-10-07T10:14:00.000-07:00

- -      ♥     x.KAILINN     says:
*he
*say
*you
*girl
♥FHM}Gaze - So bring on the rain, And bring on the thunder. says:
*i know
*i look like
*:$
           - -      ♥     x.KAILINN     says:
*he ask me who
*i say
♥FHM}Gaze - So bring on the rain, And bring on the thunder. says:
*i chiobu-tch
           - -      ♥     x.KAILINN     says:
*my gan daddy
♥FHM}Gaze - So bring on the rain, And bring on the thunder. says:
*dont jealous'
           - -      ♥     x.KAILINN     says:
*he say HUH
*girl
*girl
*i thought she wear tube ?
♥FHM}Gaze - So bring on the rain, And bring on the thunder. says:
*LOL
*HAHAHA

Am i a pretty girl? :$

2009-10-05T12:55:00.000-07:00

You'll always be my thunder. ♥

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain,
And bring on the thunder.

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain

And listen to the thunder.

2009-10-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

HI. I'm proud to say, that i'm gonna find a new dota team soon. cause this current team, except for Darryl and Pzz teamwork with me, isn't working out. Whenever there are people missing, no one reports. When i start th engage, no one comes. Except for these two brothers, who are th most steady, in my opinion.

"Ahfeix3 says:
*this week
*if we were to dota
*all listen to my commands
*if not dun play
*i dun wan a noob game
*dun forget wads my standard
*and u shud know urs too
*so if they cant play well
*me and u
♥FHM}Gaze - Every time you hold in a fart, you're that much closer to killing a baby! says:
*i know
*-.-
Ahfeix3 says:
*find new team players
♥FHM}Gaze - Every time you hold in a fart, you're that much closer to killing a baby! says:
*i know
*i also want find le. "

Straight from th horse's mouth. IF We have ANY match. I expect ALL team members to be ON SKYPE or ON PHONE. Unless th coordination and teamwork is good and acceptable and there are lil mistakes, ALL MUST CALL. I dont give a fucking shit if your house phone is being used, USE YOUR FUCKING HANDPHONE. HANDPHONES AREN'T FOR SHOW. YOU WANT PLAY DOTA AND ALT TAB AND DONT KNOW GAME START DONT FUCKING PLAY DOTA. Next week is th last match. If th standard isn't back, teamwork isn't there, Goodbye to FHM.

Yes, i'm fucking pissed. Why ? Look at this,

And look back at our most recent game's standard. Hero missing no one report. then what's th point of playing ? Learn to improve your fucking teamwork. Or else, find a new team for yourself.

2009-10-04T06:26:00.001-07:00

✖ ZhiWei says:
*in my bottle pop shake meeee
♥FHM}Gaze - Every time you hold in a fart, you're that much closer to killing a baby! says:
*disgusting fucker
*i dont shake guys
*i shake girls
✖ ZhiWei says:
*...
- - ♥ x.KAILINN says:
*LOL
*ew.
♥FHM}Gaze - Every time you hold in a fart, you're that much closer to killing a baby! says:
*LOL
*im not gay i dont wanna shake your bottle.
✖ ZhiWei says:
*-.-

sorry im epicly bored.

2009-10-04T03:46:00.000-07:00

I'm back ~

Awesome times yesterday. Not as fun as last time though. It's like th group has been split into two. Shucks. _l_ Anyways, had pool party @ Jc's . Melted a hole in th table LOL. Zeena and Bell came over . -stunned- Ate loads of satays, hotdogs and what nots . Blacklabel crabstick and marshmallow too ! ( marshmallow was shit. Chocolate FTW ) .

That should be all for now, awaiting someone's post or reaction. It'll be interesting. :D

2009-10-02T13:29:00.000-07:00

Hoho, got flower from wedding again ;hoho. sadly no SS-es. :( Grats Darryl and Bell on wedding success. ! Gonna pierce my nose soon (?) w Lionel :D

2009-09-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

Went to your fb , thought about you. i really miss you, love ..
i miss singing to you,
i miss talking to you,
i miss audi-ing with you,
i miss your snores,
i miss your laughs,
i miss your kisses,
i miss sleeping on th phone with you,
i miss singing you belong with me to you,
i miss singing love story to you,
i miss ROMEO & JULIET.

lastly & most importantly,

i miss you.

2009-09-27T01:07:00.000-07:00

Anyone wants a lick ?

2009-09-26T11:04:00.000-07:00

For all your information, whether you are my close friend, bro, sis or just friends with me. i am NOT FUN TO DISTURB. you want joke i can joke, but dont fucking put me in a fucking tight spot and scold me or say something stupid for no mother fucking reason. Thanks.

2009-09-24T17:59:00.000-07:00

Forgot to upload this before i went to Brandon's . somehow im th only one who thinks my hair makes me look like a girl.

2009-09-23T01:42:00.000-07:00

YES AH I FINALLY FOUND TH FUCKING LYRICS FOR THIS SONG !

BANDAGE FOR MY BLEEDING BY A CHINESE RESTAURANT !

So look at me now, understand where I am, on top where you won't ever be.

So look at me now, understand where I am, on top where you won't ever be,
You stood up late to reach the train.
Not sorry for that, just remember what you said, I'm stuck in circles with walls around me that I can't kick away.

Take a look around you, these pictures of me, these guys following,
Your pretty face looks strange.
Take a look around you, these pictures of me, these guys following,
Your pretty face looks strange!

What will you do, and how far will you go to reclaim your place?
Will you be the bandage for my bleeding?
What will you do, and how far will you go to reclaim your place?
Will you be the bandage for my bleeding?
What will you do, and how far will you go?

So what will you do, with your back against the wall?
I'm standing right in front of you, my words are blaming you, that's all.
And where will you go, when there's nothing left to say?
Your stuck in circles with walls around you, you can't kick away.

Take a look around you, these pictures of me, these guys following,
Your pretty face looks strange.
Take a look around you, these pictures of me, these guys following,
Your pretty face looks strange.

Would you bleed a river to construct a spirit full of pieces based on good old memories?

What will you do, and how far will you go to reclaim your place?
Will you be the bandage for my bleeding?
What will you do, and how far will you go to reclaim your place?
Will you be the bandage for my bleeding?
What will you do, and how far will you go to reclaim your place?
Will you be the bandage for my bleeding?
What will you do, and how far will you go?

2009-09-21T20:44:00.001-07:00

Hey guys , i'm trying to organize a bbq outing th next week or th week after next . If possible we could have it at th fucker Pzz's place. Else i'll prolly book a bbq pit at punggol park or something. Pasir ris's pits sound more tempting though. hahaha. Please get back to me those who are interested, cause i dont think i'll be able to cover up for ALL th costs and stuffs. & My sis's birthday party is on this Sat. Those who want to come, tell me. This is for all my friends. We're invited cause my sis's friend invited me and asked me to invite my friends. So yeah, it's at chomp chomp 6:30pm .

2009-09-21T10:27:00.001-07:00

EH CB , SAY 12 O CLOCK REACH HOME MAKE SURE YOU CAN ACHIEVE THAT LA HOR. KNN SAY ONE THING DO ANOTHER. JUST CAUSE GOT GIRL WANT PS BROTHER SIBO ? MAKE TWO FUCKERS WAIT LIKE DOG. DK HOW TO PICK UP OR SMS BACK ONE AH ? PHONE NOT ACCESSORY, FUCKING LEARN TO PICK UP CALLS OR REPLY SMSES.

2009-09-21T08:49:00.001-07:00

I realised, it really is better to go out with friends who care when you've got something on your mind. Thanks guys for today's pool outing. Really took my mind off things. Pics for today ! :

2009-09-21T02:30:00.000-07:00

thanks mummeh for introducing thing song to meeee ~

2009-09-19T10:41:00.001-07:00

Thanks guys for th wonderful fun night. :) Welcome Marcus back to MACDONALDS ! HAHA.

Pic of th Day ! :

2009-09-17T20:02:00.001-07:00

it's been a long time since i blogged. so ,
LYRICS FOR YOU!

Madina Lake - Pandora.

The way you dance it turns me on
But you know that i'm spoken for
The way your sweat drips off your chest
You know that i'm wanting more

The lies the sex the heat this sweat
And nothing else matters
You call my name without your dress

I already forgot her
You have no idea what you do to me
And you, you have no idea what your doing to me

Pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But i know that i'll regret what i did
And i know i'll regret it forever as i throw my life away, pandora

The girl i love sits at home and i know that she's lonely
But i'm watching you take off your clothes
Your the star of this movie
The love the hate the guilt my fate is hanging in the balance
You have no idea what you do to me
Oh you don't even care what you mean to me

Pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But i know that i'll regret what i did
And i know i'll regret it forever as i throw my life away, pandora

And by the time that i come home she's already sleeping
Sit on the bed and take off my clothes
My nerves their shaking
The lies the sex the heat this sweat
Your body is quaking
The love the hate the guilt my fate
Against this temptress

Pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
And i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
But i know that i'll regret what i did
And i know I'll regret it forever as i throw my life away (forever as i throw my life away)
Forever as i throw my life away, pandora

2009-09-09T14:47:00.000-07:00

i've lost my purpose in life. everyday i used to wake up and look forward to your calls and messages, but it wont happen anymore will it? if i could turn back time, i would tell you not to go. i really need you here with me. i love you and i really miss you.

2009-09-09T01:14:00.000-07:00

These memories are meant to stay.

2009-09-09T01:10:00.001-07:00

I told myself not to cry, i knew someday, this day will come. 090909, Amy Fong is leaving Singapore. Whether for good for or not, it will be up to you. No matter what your decision is, i wont blame you for anything and i'll love you for doing it too. Have a safe trip, and follow your heart. Since you said your heart is w me, come back some day to get it. With all my heart, I Love You.

2009-09-06T13:19:00.000-07:00

Getting pretty irritated by th spams from blog shops and what not. Hey, i'm not interested in girls clothings? i am not a fucking girl for fuck sakes. Here, a picture of mine. -

2009-09-01T12:28:00.000-07:00

Sweat drips in my eyes…screams of lost we cry
Tonight you are everything to me…you're everything
You're everything to me no more
As I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls; I can not stay and live this lie
For I must think only of myself

and to think that you would not be
Scared or surprised if I had severed all
These ties
This is the end …

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight,
Help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter
(It has come to this)
End of beautiful illusions
(One last kiss)
Broken pieces will not mend to
Save our past now

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight,
Help me get over you
One last false apology,
Help me get over you

Now we must let go… urgency
Overwhelms me as I must restrain
My flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false
Beauty again…

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight,
Help me get over you
One last false apology,
Help me get over you

In my mind
Blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful
Last goodbye.

goodnight, goodbye. my love.

2009-08-30T10:26:00.001-07:00

Hi, I'm Marc. says:
*okay
*by a chinese restaurant
*wtf cool name
♥FHM}Gaze - Oh, Maria Maria ~ LP FIRST TRY PASS ;shy says:
*yeah
*LOL
*next time
*we make
*an indian restaurant
*(Y)
Hi, I'm Marc. says:
*An Indian restaurant
*yeah
*LOL
♥FHM}Gaze - Oh, Maria Maria ~ LP FIRST TRY PASS ;shy says:
*LOL

(Y)

2009-08-27T12:24:00.001-07:00

http://www.jamlegend.com/refer/li/755026

come on guys ! join meh ! >_< fun game eh !

2009-08-25T05:40:00.001-07:00

Tuesday, August 25th 2009.

this day forth i sever all my ties w Fion. You said it yourself, you only message me when you need me, and you wont when you dont. You dont deserve a friend and a listening ear like me.

2009-08-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

oh gosh, i'm turning old. I'm beginning to listen to Santana, Aerosmith, Guns n Roses, Motley Crue and what not. Ah !

& She's got th Curse of Curves .

2009-08-23T14:24:00.000-07:00

From time to time, troubles keep coming more often than ever. How much more can i take ? Everyday i fake a smile, so that others will not worry for me. But deep down, i know, my handful of close and loved friends know there's something wrong w me. W th recent quarrels, honestly idk how much i can take anymore. From Estella to Pei xun, what else is life gonna throw at me ? From Love to friends, to life itself. If life has a " I QUIT " button, i would've pressed it long ago. I dont know what's keeping me going on, friends? My loving mom who's passed on? I dont want to live a meaningless life, i guess, that's my only purpose for going on. From th day i was born right up til now, i've yet to do something that's meaningful. That's what i think. "So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? " Quote from Seize the Day by Avenged Sevenfold. For those that have never heard of it, go listen to it. It's a nice song. No Screamo, dont worry. :) So yeah, what if i never hold you, or kiss your lips again ? This part is for those whom I loved, and maybe still love. So what'll happen if i'll never hold you or kiss your lips again ? As much as i want to, i know it's impossible. These three girls whom i loved, could never be mine. Yet i keep going on hoping. Hope, dreams and just Hope and dreams. They will NEVER come true. This is from personal experience, those who have their hopes and dreams fulfiled, kudos to you. These few days, i keep listening to songs like Seize the Day, Harder than You know, Ashley, Miserable at Best. I know it isn't helping me one bit , but they really, REALLY describe how i feel. " Ashley, baby, you make me feel so alive. I've got purpose once again. " Quote from Ashley, by Escape the Fate. So, i'm wondering if this "Ashley" will appear, perhaps she's appeared before, but i overlooked her? I dont know. " take everything away from me silent angel... " Starting line of This Conversation is Over. Alesana is teh sex. If there was this silent angel, i really hope it'll take everything away from me. Afterall , i've had nothing much to begin w. I've spent 18 years of my life playing, and i'm really sick of playing. What more can i do ? Who will be th one who's willing to guide me. I wonder. I've never hated my dad for not being there as a family man, nor did i hate him for remarrying . He's a man through and through, and men need love. That's th most important thing that i feel i lack. As much as i want someone to guide me now, a family member, i wouldn't ask for my dad. If i could have a wish, i would wish for my mom to still be alive and guide me. Nothing is ever too late, but i've strayed far from th right path alr in my opinion. " This is the year where hope fails you. The test subjects run the experiment , And the bastards you know is the hero you hate. But cohesion is possible if we try. There's no reason, There's no lesson, No time like the present. Tell me right now, what have you got to lose?What have you got to lose, except your soul? Who's with us? " Slipknot's speech in th starting part of Pulse of the Maggots. Selling your soul, is it worth it? In th end, when we die, we lose all earthly things. I've always said i'd sell my soul for true love, but true love could never be bought, not by money, not by my soul. This option has been knocking on my head for quite a while. Moving to Melbourne. If i do, i'd have a new life, new friends, new challenges, new obstacles. And i'd be able to continue studying. But is that what i really what ? No. I truly treasure my friends, and i'm not willing to leave them behind. It maybe true that as we grow old, we'd lose lots of good friends. Whether to work, or just stop contacting. It's sad, but i guess it's th truth. From th first time i came to Singapore, I've had close brothers backstabbing me, forgetting about me, making a fool out of me . From th time i was in St Gab primary til St Gab secondary, i've never forgotten to invite those whom i've knew since primary school til now whenever i've a party going . Yet i receive word that somethings happenening and i wasn't notified. So much for being brothers? I guess, some people really get to know you only to use you. And when they're done w you, they just throw you aside. Thank you Kat dasao for those words you tagged, really appreciate it. :) I've told myself, certain people, but i keep thinking about them and i cant help myself. Can someone hit me w a car, so i'll forget everything? Amnesia seems like th start of a new life for certain people. Hmm, i guess i'm done for tonight. Feeling better alr i guess. Supposed to meet Poh tomorrow, i dont even know if i can wake up.
Lets finish w a song lyrics aight ? I chose this song for it's title, nothing else. Honestly. :)
Metro Station - Goodnight and Goodbye.

"And you can start by saying sorry,
That would be the best,
would be the first thing to get off your chest.

cuz I know you found someone new
and the saddest part is
he doesn't mean a thing to you.
you'll give him a test,
and leave him like all the rest.
(yeah) nothing but a test,
cuz you know that I'm the best.

baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you.
you will talk to me
but I sure won't talk to you.
baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you
you will come to see
maybe I was the one for you.

What do you say?
Lets end this song today.
She might be new,
but she is overwhelming compared to you.
But I wish you the best,
I'll bet you regret losing me
after all this stress.
I moved on and so did you
your misery won't bring me down too.

baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you.
you will talk to me
but I sure won't talk to you.
baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you
you will come to see
maybe I was the one for you.

Baby, baby...
(welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face)
Baby baby...
(welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face)
baby, baby
(welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face)
baby baby
(welcome back to this place stay out of town and out of state, I don't ever want to see your face)
good night and goodbye to you

baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you.
you will talk to me
but I sure won't talk to you.
baby baby,
goodnight and goodbye to you
you will come to see
maybe I was the one for you. "
As much as i want to see you, i know that i shouldn't. and i cant. because at th end of th day, i'll hurt both of us.

2009-08-22T12:34:00.001-07:00

yeah bitch i'm toxic \m/ . LOL

2009-08-21T09:51:00.000-07:00

i guess, there are people who only look for friends when they need them or when their boy/girlfs aren't there. or when there's secrets they cant tell their boy/girlfs.

#1 - Miss Fion .
Yeah Fion , this post is just for you. cause i'm fucking sick of being th fucking nice guy who's always there to talk to. Since you chose not to contact me after you had a boyf , why did you contact me again ? Just cause you were studying, he's not there, or maybe you were hungry ? Or you dont have anyone to talk to ? Yeah, th truth is that there was SOMETHING WRONG in your relationship and you couldn't talk to anyone but ME . SINCE you chose this path, to neglect someone who's always been there for you, for someone who just appeared and you two got together, so be it. Find someone else to talk to, cause i dont intend to help anymore . You pm-ed me in Audi cause there was no one to pei you, so i went to find you and there was no slot. After that did you even talk to me ? Nah, your other "friends" were more impt . So you've just wasted my time trying to go f1 and pei you. Thanks !

#2 - Boo Pei Xun .
Yes my dearest darling , i'm also FUCKING SICK OF YOUR -.- in EVERY FUCKING SENTENCE. You just now say i kan you ? Fuck you. Look at th fucking way you talked to me just now. Every fucking sentence has a -.- in it . How'd you like it if i talk to you like this. Hi -.- Bye -.- Go stun -.- Want go eat? -.- SUCKS RIGHT ? SO YOU SCOLD ME CAUSE I "KAN" YOU ? FUCK YOU. I asked for your help to start game , you dw. Then you say i play ballroom w Amy, just th two of us, i also song ? I SONG YOU WANT HOW ? You dw help me, that's enough. But extra comments ? No thanks. I dont fucking need it . 17th Aug, My wedding date. I asked YOU, Pork, Nehneh to come. But no, you guys chose to play dota even though th wedding was just around 30mins away ? You should very well know, we tried many times to end a game within 30mins. But most of th time we fail, you know that fucking fact well. Yet you guys chose to play. Well, at least Nehneh and Pork had th Sincerity to APOLOGIZE to me . Did you ? Just cause you think you're my close friend you can be like that ? Fuck you. _l_

OH HEY I FORGOT. I FUCKING HATE TO BE SOMEONE'S MOTHER FUCKING PUNCHING BAG. IF YOU INTEND TO BE MY FRIEND SO YOU CAN THROW YOUR MOTHER FUCKING SHITS AND ATTITUDE AT ME, JOLLY WELL FUCK OFF.

2009-08-17T12:27:00.000-07:00

Me is going to bed nao. Interview tomorrow. G_G

another lyrics today , idk what to write . ;x

I could've found a better way
You know I never should have stayed
I could've said the things I believed were wrong [You know you're wrong]
Now you're saying that it's late
It doesn't matter what I say
You know you're just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kinda girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love

So now I'm feeling like a slave
I'm locked away inside this grave
And now I'm hoping for a way I can be saved [I can be saved]
You know that there will come a day
When I'm just gonna have to change, you're just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kinda girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Fall in love

You know I found a small paper
You lied about, You lied about [2x]

You lie to me, lie to me

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Difficult, so very typical
You are the kinda girl, that makes me fall in love, fall in love

2009-08-15T18:35:00.001-07:00

We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.

No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes.
No explanations, No fucking reasons why.
I watched it eat you up, pieces fallen on the floor.

We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.
Don't give up hope my friend, this is not the end.

We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.

Death is only a chapter, so lets rip out the pages of yesterday.
Death is only a horizon. And I am ready for my sun to set.

If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
We would climb our way to heaven, and bring him home again. [X3]

We would do anything to bring him back to you.
We would do anything to end what your going through.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.

I would do anything to bring him back to you.
Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.

2009-08-13T12:20:00.000-07:00

Thank you Marcus for this E-Pic Pic. LOL. BABY I CANT SLEEP AFTER I WOKE UP ! :(

2009-08-11T08:39:00.000-07:00

Moral of th Day : Pzz is a noob photographer.

Okay ! Woke up at 10:30 . fucking slept on th couch AGAIN. and my phone's alarm rang and it vibrated at my butt, causing me to wake up. LOL. went back to bed room, fell back to sleep til 4pm =.= prepared, went to dhoby to meet Px, Kl and Pzz for GI Joe. Damn shit good movie. Awesome ! k lazy alr =.=

2009-08-08T11:22:00.000-07:00

✖     ZhiWei says:
*last time u in ur mother stomach i already playing
♥FHM}Gaze - HI! I'm Emobob Slashwristpants. I jizzed right in my pants. says:
*OH REALLY ?
*LOL
*CB YOU BORN LATER THAN ME
*ASSHOLE
*_l-
*_l_ *
      ✖     ZhiWei says:
*LOL..
Hi, I'm Marc. says:
*LOL
♥FHM}Gaze - HI! I'm Emobob Slashwristpants. I jizzed right in my pants. says:
*YOUR MOTHER WOMB GOT COM AH
*LOL
      ✖     ZhiWei says:
*got
♥FHM}Gaze - HI! I'm Emobob Slashwristpants. I jizzed right in my pants. says:
*wah
*aizai
*robot sia
*GOT THING TO BLOG ALR A_Av

2009-08-07T03:36:00.001-07:00

Dearest love I hope
This message finds you well
As these endless thoughts
Drip from my soul

Every single word
Secretly
Paints a fairytale of when we
Will melt into ONE

EYES (I AM SO SCARED)
FORFEIT SIGHT TO THE PAIN
(SO SCARED)
COLD SCALPEL'S
STEEL WHISPERS
TEAR AT MY
VERY CORE
AS I CLING TO MY MEMORIES OF YOU
(I need you with me)

Were the last words
That I wrote for you
ENOUGH TO TELL YOU
THAT IN MY DEATH
The light that shone through my painful darkness
Was a blinding (blinding)
VISION OF YOUR ETERNAL SMILE

It's me again
IS IT ME OR AM I WRONG
To be concerned
Will the beauty of your pen
EVER CROSS MY EYES AGAIN
Was this all a lie
WHY

Were the last words
That I wrote for you
ENOUGH TO TELL YOU
THAT IN MY DEATH
The light that shone through my painful darkness
Was a blinding (blinding)
VISION OF YOUR ETERNAL SMILE

[Two Parts At Once]
I don't know what happened
Who would have thought my life would end up like this
I never even got the chance to see her face
Or to touch her hair
And now it's too late
I didn't mean to hurt her
Not hurt her like this
{I can't feel my legs (2x))
And I can't even cry
How could someone die like this
Who would have though my life would end up like this
(Make it stop
Make this pounding in my head stop
Fill my lungs with air
Give me one more day to make her dreams come true
She understands right
That I'm not coming back
SHE UNDERSTANDS RIGHT
THAT I'M NOT COMING BACK
Make it stop, MAKE THE POUNDING STOP
(I'M NOT COMING BACK (2x))
I'm not coming back}
[End Two Parts At Once]

If my words even reach you
(EVEN REACH YOU)
I'll assume you don't care
NEVER KNEW THAT SILENCE
COULD CUT SO DEEP
OR THAT YOU COULD TWIST
THE BLADE
NOW I CURSE ALL
OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL LIES
I LOVE YOU AND
GOODBYE

Were the last words
That I wrote for you
ENOUGH TO TELL YOU
THAT IN MY DEATH
The light that shone through my painful darkness
Was a blinding (blinding)
Vision of your eternal smile

COLD SCALPEL'S
STEEL WHISPERS
TEAR AT MY
VERY CORE
AS I CLING TO MY MEMORIES OF YOU
(I need you with me)

2009-08-04T08:42:00.001-07:00

Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
You'll realize what you did to me.

[Chorus]
And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took out.

No, I won't let it go.
Douse myself in gasoline
So Don't save me when you come into the fire.
I'd rather die than have to see your smile.

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

You made me swear
You made me swear
I, I can't sleep.
Realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart (you made me swear)
Into dust (you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind (you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside (you made me swear)
Smash apart what you created.
How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was It was yours, yours to begin with.

All, I can think of, is my love for you
And all the fun times we shared together
As I end what I created
( ------------------------- )

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Will you be there for me?
If i can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away

2009-08-03T22:43:00.001-07:00

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you
I know you'll wait for me... it's been too long
Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain
Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies... you're killing me
I would wait for years just to feel you again
I will die without you... would you my love?
Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as
You scream his name... you're killing me

Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time
... One last time...
Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake

Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with
The one who stole it all
Compassion is not an option

Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time
... One last time...
Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake up
Realize your mistake!

In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble
I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you...

Who do you see with your eyes shut tight?
Regret will be your bride
Goodbye...

Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake and realize your mistake
Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

2009-07-25T22:59:00.000-07:00

out of th 2 people i told my problems, another one read my blog, only two tried to comfort me, while th other took me as a joke.

2009-07-25T11:13:00.001-07:00

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

2009-07-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

i truly realised why i am who i am right now. All these years i kept pretending i am strong , but i realised, i am not. As i sit here typing this, i am actually crying behind this computer screen. I was taking my usual nap, cause i've been sick for around 3 days ? and i had this dream. which, i dreamt, of my beloved mother. i dreamt of her TWICE. and i cried like fuck. i hate being in th state i am in now. Mommy, i miss you.

2009-07-25T03:52:00.000-07:00

i never knew even now , there are people who want to look "cool" and act big. A.k.a Step Yi Ge. HEY FAT FUCK ! THIS POST IS FOR YOU FUCKER _l_ SO YOU THINK YOU FAT YOU BIG FUCK LAH . ROAD SO BIG MUST PURPOSELY BANG MY SHOULDER AH. TRYING TO MAKE YOUR NAME KNOWS BY BANGING AN UNKNOWN PERSON ISN'T TH WAY TO GO. TRY GETTING TH ATTENTION OF THOSE WELL KNOWN GANGSTERS K ? HAVE FUN w THAT DOUCHE _l_ :)

2009-07-24T12:00:00.001-07:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

2009-07-22T10:27:00.000-07:00

i'm coughing like fuck and i feel like i'm dying. i shouldn't have done those things at Jc's . -.-'' oh yeah, i realised i didn't show my crack at th BBQ. HAHA.

2009-07-21T11:58:00.001-07:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2009-07-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

babble babble bitch bitch, rebel rebel party party, sex sex sex and dont forget th violence .

2009-07-17T23:58:00.000-07:00

MOAR EPIC PICS ! <3

2009-07-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

18th Birthday - 17thJuly09 . PS: i fucking hate blogger. idk how to do my pics nicely _l_

2009-07-16T10:02:00.001-07:00

This post is Especially for my dearest AFAJ <3

thank you baby for trying to send me synced birthday wishes, even though you dced, it's th thought that counts. i really hoped that you could've come later to celebrate w me, but it's your decision and i respect it. i'll still be waiting no matter what. thank you for th joy you've brought me. and though i may be emo at times, think nothing of it. remember what i told you before. and lastly , i love you no matter what.

2009-07-16T10:01:00.001-07:00

kay idw to sound biased. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES. appreciate it, thanks for telling me that i'm not alone. :)

2009-07-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! TO ME !
Okay, it's SEVENTEEN JULY. and yes happy birthday to me. i'm 18 years old. OLD ALR. ZOMG. And yes, another Loner outing. ON MY BIRTHDAY _l_ yes, i'm eighteen, i'll try my best to act more maturely. do things on my own, independence, blah blah blah. fuck lah . idk what to write. LOL. truth be told, i'm happy yet sad la. fucking loner outing again. SCREW YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! D: k, hope i'll have fun on tomorrow's bbq/chalet. darryl bro/father in law/all th other things ish booking out ! wee ~ just hope that tomorrow's food will be enough, and that th half bottle of vodka will last. i dont have money in th budget to get a new bottle. unless some people wanna kup. :3 OKAY ! THANKS TO ALL THAT WISHED ME ! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS !

was hoping LOADS of people would come, but sadly, they cant/dw to . oh well !

2009-07-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

This shining city built of gold
A far cry from innocence
There's more than meets the eye 'round here
Look to the waters of the deep

A city of evil

There sat a seven-headed beast
Ten horns raised from his head
Symbolic woman sits on his throne
But hatred strips her and leaves her naked

The beast and the harlot

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird
And makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the great

The city dressed in jewels and gold
Fine linen, myrrh and pearls
Her plagues will come all at once
As her mourners watch her burn

Destroyed in an hour

Merchants and captains of the world
Sailors navigators too
Will weep and mourn this loss
With her sins piled to the sky

The beast and the harlot

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird
And makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the great

The day has come for all us sinners
If you're not a servant, you'll be struck to the ground
Flee the burning, greedy city
Looking back on her to see there's nothin' around

I don't believe in fairy tales and no one wants to go to Hell
We've made the wrong decision and it's easy to see
Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us
Your welcome to the city where your future is set forever

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird
And makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the great

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird
And makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the great

2009-07-15T06:53:00.000-07:00

yeah i look like crap. lol.

2009-07-15T04:11:00.000-07:00

i got grey contacts this time :D $15 . haven't tried though @_@

2009-07-14T12:31:00.000-07:00

GAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! finally i rebonded my hair. idk if i'm not used to th flatness of rebonding or what . but i dont seem to like it. oh well !

2009-07-13T11:27:00.001-07:00

I'm starring at the glass
In front of me
Is it half empty
If I ruined all
You've given me
I know I've been selfish
I know I've been foolish
But look through that
And you will see
That I'll do better
I know, baby
I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me
I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Sometimes I stare at you
While you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I Somehow
Managed to
Sweep you off of your feet girl
Your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted
What you do
But I'll do better
I know, baby
I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me
I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Don't you know
My heart is pumping hope
It's putting out the fight
I got this feeling
That everything's alright
Don't you see
I'm not the only one for you
But you're the only one for me

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me
I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight
Don't leave me tonight

baby this is for you.

2009-07-12T23:23:00.000-07:00

list of things to do before my Birthday. :

1 - Rebond my hair
2 - Book a freaking 1 Night Chalet.
3 - Get th Food Preps done.
4 - I dont know anymore. Help people !

2009-07-12T12:05:00.001-07:00

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't hove to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my hear was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say is I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

2009-07-12T05:51:00.001-07:00

dont fucking give me fuck faces like -.- for no fucking reason cause it fucking pisses me off.

2009-07-12T05:44:00.001-07:00

honestly i have been begging for answers, that you and only you could give to me.

2009-07-12T02:20:00.001-07:00

Hey guys and girls, i'm sure that most of you know that i intend to organize a chalet. and now th thing is, 18th - 19th morning is unavailable, so it's only 17th - 18th morning book out that's th best choice atm. so i most likely gonna book one night only ): *plus my dad is being a big bitch. knn even more gehgao than some gehgao people i know* so yeah, now is th food prob. i'm trying to find out how many people are willing to chip in some money for th food. and who's comfirm going/not going. please reply asap via sms/msn pm when i'm online. tyvm. Cymon.

2009-07-09T11:34:00.000-07:00

it's 2.34am. and i just thought to myself of something. how th hell did i become th emo guy i am right now ? crying over every single small thing ? i honestly dont know. somebody save me.

2009-07-09T07:12:00.001-07:00

Sexy~

2009-07-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hi,I'm Marc. says:
*scene dad + jew mom = sperm kid

damn good equation.